Introduction

Well this was supposed to be out earlier this week, but quite frankly I forgot and was really tired from the weekend of gaming I just had.

GOML Forever

GOML is a yearly Super Smash Brothers Melee tournament I go to, and it’s honestly one of my highlights of every year. I love GOML. It has done so much for me. I’ve met many cool people going to the tournament, I’ve seen many iconic moments in person, and I’ve met a lot of the people I’ve looked up to. I’ve somehow managed to be a small part of a smaller community that I hold so dearly to my heart. For the past two years, I have been volunteering at the event helping run pools (sections of a double elimination bracket) and it’s always really fun. I do obviously have moments where I fall behind schedule and sometimes that’s just out of my content (infinite floaties being sent to my pool) and honestly that’s fine. It’s all part of the experience. I love Melee and I love gaming. I love the environment. In person gaming is something you have to experience if you never have before. It’s like live sporting but nerdier and depending on the scene, smellier. I am glad to say that the Melee community does a pretty good job with personal hygiene and I did not have a single sweaty-smelling person experience the entire event.

Troubles with aiming

I know this isn’t going to be an issue for long, but I have a really hard time with being consistent with my aim, and it’s actually out of my control. It isn’t the muscle issues I have in my right arm. It’s the humidity during the summer. For those who don’t live in a humid country, humidity actually affects the feeling of your mousepad pretty significantly depending on the severity. The summer here gets very (very) hot, and since I’m surrounded (and live near) many of the great lakes, it makes walking outside sometime feel like swimming through air. It’s terrible. So I cannot for the LIFE of me get a consistent feeling of my mousepad. It feels like at times there’s a ball underneath, or that there’s a lot of resistance against it. It’s like I’m fighting my mousepad in order to aim. It’s really frustrating.

Two time-blocks a day

I am experimenting now (starting today) with strict time blocking. Not verbose intense time blocking however. Just two blocks. One for more focused study time, and the other for relaxation time. I have a problem with starting things at the beginning of the day and then figuring out when it’s time to game. Right now I go to sleep pretty late. When I wake up early like I used to, I actually feel like complete trash. I have bad acid reflux, and it feels like the pores in my body are going to explode from the bloat. When I get up later, it’s fine.

Making videos is hard

I have written some more scripts to record. I just have to reinstall Davinci, and I’m off to the races again. I’ve been feeling like absolute horseshit thinking about making videos again. I don’t have anything to show for my time away. I know it’s fine either way, as I don’t do this for the income. I don’t make income really. I loved sharing things, it’s just that I don’t feel like anything I have right now is worth sharing. It’s this inferiority complex I have. I’m also perfectionistic making it fucking IMPOSSIBLE to actually push things out to the public, and since I haven’t been programming or sharing things on GitHub, it’s gotten worse.

Conclusion

See you guys next week ! :3